I lost steam along the way on pretty much life in general. I started a treatment of IV Ketamine treatments once a week. No long term help for the pain but the hour I'm in and out and about an hour afterwards, it's pure pain free vacation time for me. It's a little Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds-esce. I have to block out all sound because I can easily freak out. Other patients freak me out. So I discovered music that makes me think, really helps. I have to be careful because music can make me feel waves of terror. Recently I used the song called Scotland (Reign Theme) by the Lumineers*. Love the song but the drums, drugs and darkness was a bad match. It's helping me cope. I have given up on life but this makes me feel much better.
*Youtube video for Scotland
The treatments make me feel very existentialist. How much does my presence mean in this world? That kind of thing. So more on that in upcoming posts.
Also look forward to my resolve on whether or not to get involved in the elections again. I swore not to do it again after I saw history be made with the first African American President. God bless him. He's not had it easy. But I have my eye on shattering a glass ceiling. The Republicans are making it way too easy. Huckabee's open support of Josh Duggar in the child molesting case. Jeb Bush "mishears" a question leading to his support of the war crimes of his brother and that evil little troll Dick Cheney. Then we have Rand Paul. The man is a ticking timebomb... Let's hope the Liberal candidates, pop some popcorn and let them self destruct. I love Bernie Sanders but his place is in congress. So Hillary has my vote this election
Fun times, ladies and gents.
