So, I really try not to feel regret over stupid life choices I've made. I think of them as OH ISH lessons. Many of you may recall my aversion at attending Hell Hole High and the part of the year where I earned my best education: Upward Bound. I was a timid child, lazy, but freakishly intelligent. By the time I got the hang of things when I moved away from my small and beloved hometown, I'd taken on too much credit hours that I burned out on college way to soon. Stupid unfortuate but you know what I should have done? Taken off in my car across the country. Why not, Trayci?? THAT would have been the coolest life experience ever. NOMADS!!! Alas we did not. We lacked courage or at least I did. we should have adventured.
But I overcame my need to hide behind someone. I'll never do that again. My beloved hometown is changing so much. I don't see myself ever living there as is the golden goal as so many of my high school acquaintances do. I feel I was born in the wrong place at the wrong time. I was meant to live near the ocean.
Enough of where I failed myself and my father lets discuss what I DID do right. I married a man that I deeply respect and we have 2 beautiful daughters that show any sign of the timidity or self loathing I carried in my high school. They are confident in themselves and they're ability to develop REAL friendships. Friends that last a life time. I love seeing my girls have good fun in my hometown and I'm happy to see them navigate the streets of San Francisco. Haggle for things in Mexico, and feel little fear in life. I don't want them to settle for small town safety. Challenge yourselves, girls!! I want no talk of settling for the same rut.
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