Update to Trump Era Newcomers

Until I understand this EU Cookie law better I will leave Google's complimentary notice that this blog uses Blogger and Google cookies. These include Google Analytics and AdSense cookies. Also, I feel that I should warn that this blog was started in the style of and in response to the toxic commentary of Glenn Beck and Rush Limbaugh. I don't mince words and the people who cannot see common sense in my words or are deliberately uninformed may not like the way I express myself. I moderate comments because I have had stalkers that posted filth in response to my religion. I'm not afraid to post conflicting opinion comments but I filter threats and inappropriate language comments. This comes in response to the Trump Era. May it be shorter than 4 years. =)

Saturday, February 26, 2011

See?

Joe Scarborough agrees with me. However I will say this. I don't want Glenn Beck to stop talking crazy talk. I want him to stop saying he's Mormon. He's the gift that keeps on giving for Dems!!!

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/02/26/joe-scarborough-glenn-beck_n_828624.html

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

NO MO BECK!!!

Yes I'm obsessed with this subject.
I seriously dislike Glenn Beck and find him an unlikely role model for the Mormon faith and am astounded by the people around me. His actions are such a distortion to our beliefs and it amazes me that no one has called him on it.

The Word of Wisdom is one of the more common knowledge aspects of our religion. It's a bit more complicated than no smoking or drinking. This is The Word of Wisdom (WOW) as it was laid out for us in Section 89 of the Doctrine and Covenants. The words in blue are linked to the official church website:

 5 That inasmuch as any man adrinketh bwine or strong drink among you, behold it is not good, neither meet in the sight of your Father, only in assembling yourselves together to offer up your sacraments before him.
 6 And, behold, this should be wine, yea, apure wine of the grape of the vine, of your own make.
 7 And, again, astrong drinks are not for the belly, but for the washing of your bodies.
 8 And again, tobacco is not for the abody, neither for the belly, and is not good for man, but is an herb for bruises and all sick cattle, to be used with judgment and skill.
 9 And again, hot drinks are not for the body or belly.
 10 And again, verily I say unto you, all wholesome aherbs God hath ordained for the constitution, nature, and use of man—
 11 Every herb in the season thereof, and every fruit in the season thereof; all these to be used with aprudence and bthanksgiving.
 12 Yea, aflesh also of bbeasts and of the fowls of the air, I, the Lord, have ordained for the use of man with thanksgiving; nevertheless they are to be used csparingly;
 13 And it is pleasing unto me that they should not be aused, only in times of winter, or of cold, or bfamine.
14 All agrain is ordained for the use of man and of beasts, to be the staff of life, not only for man but for the beasts of the field, and the fowls of heaven, and all wild animals that run or creep on the earth;
 15 And athese hath God made for the use of man only in times of famine and excess of hunger.
 16 All grain is good for the afood of man; as also the bfruit of the vine; that which yieldeth fruit, whether in the ground or above the ground—
 17 Nevertheless, wheat for man, and corn for the ox, and oats for the horse, and rye for the fowls and for swine, and for all beasts of the field, and barley for all useful animals, and for mild drinks, as also other grain.

I put in the requirements and left out what we are promised in return for obedience but obviously it's similar to the USDA Food Pyramid. Since the time it was given to Joseph Smith, the leaders of the church have had to call on members to avoid such things as drugs and caffeine. Anything that is addictive and unhealthy is discouraged. People raised in the church tend to pick and choose the parts they want to follow. It's not uncommon that you would see a roast, potatoes, gravy, and corn on the cob for 2 out of three meals of the day and fried pig in the form of sausage, bacon or ham, and some chicken abortions (I'm opposed to eggs, for personal reasons) for breakfast. Basically people who overeat are breaking the WOW because it calls for moderation in all things. Also all that meat is bad and refreshments. I've even seen candy and cake served at activities where they are stressing the importance of the WOW.
Personal info here: The amount of prescription drugs that I take are killing me. I feel that God wishes me to suck it up. I've confided in my doctor and my bishop and both disagree that I am unworthy of a temple recommend but I feel that in judgment of myself I am unworthy. Along with anger issues (obvious to my readers, and my problem of judging others.)
 Clearly this isn't how we would like to be represented:


Here's another of our favorites and also one we tend to whip out as it serves our purpose:
1 Thessalonians 5:22
We also believe the Bible to be the word of God... Naturally the suggestion of murder is something ALL people, except psychopaths, feel is pretty wrong.
aAbstain from all bappearance of cevil.

And it's not just me:
Mormon Left
Feminist Mormon Housewives
Latter Day Taint
BYU Professors: Glenn Beck Doesn't Speak For All Mormons (Deseret News)


Many of these links came from a Wordpress blog called Messenger and Advocate. Very cool blog!!

Yeah, I'm really wanting to see the long form of his criminal record. Rape and murder? No big thing to him.

Ohhh! And a bonus!! Glenn Beck the creepy perv:

Monday, February 21, 2011

Again with the irony..

I'm sure everyone has at least heard Glenn Beck bleating about the world being taken over by caliphs (I still have the dictionary link for those of you who don't know what that is). Bill O' Reilly officially thinks he's nuts and THAT'S saying something. O' Reilly is SUCH a tool! One of the things that jumped out at me was their agreement that Mubarak is a bad guy and he receives a great deal of money for leaving Iran alone, he doesn't like terrorists or Al Qaeda and tortures them. Beck then returned to the subject of American foreign policy. "We have to stand for something," he said. "[Mubarak] is torturing people with our money!"

Ummm does anyone remember the Bush administration?? Who paid for the waterboarding. Who paid for Gitmo.. WE DID. It's a matter of fact that what the Bush Admin allowed is every bit as bad as what Beck accusing Mubarak of.

More fun ironic tidbits:

7 most ironic political scandals

Rep. Mark Souder's resignation came with a twist: A video in which his mistress quizzed him on his abstinence views. But he's hardly the only politician to be exposed so ironically


Mark Souder: World's first pro-abstinence cheater? Photo: US Congress
Washington has had its share of political scandals — sexual and otherwise. But sometimes the stark contrast between a politician's predicament and the values he's championed throughout his career makes the shame even more indelible. Here, starting with the shocking affair that brought down family values conservative Rep. Mark Souder this week, a list of seven of the most ironic political scandals in recent memory:
1. Mark Souder's failure to abstain
Indiana Republican Rep. Mark Souder abruptly resigned this week after confessing to an affair with part-time staffer Tracy Jackson and issuing a standard apology to both his family and God. In an eyebrow-raising twist, however, a web video surfaced in which Jackson interviewed Souder about, among other issues, his advocacy of abstinence education. "In 2006," Jackson notes in the clip, "you had your staff conduct a report entitled 'Abstinence and its Critics' which discredits many claims purveyed by those who oppose abstinence education."

2. George Rekers' travel companion
High-profile conservative George Rekers recently resigned from the National Association for Research and Therapy of Homosexuality, a leading force in the movement to "cure" homosexuality, after he was caught renting a young male prostitute for a 10-day European vacation. Rekers said he was stepping down "to allow myself the time necessary to fight the false media reports that have been made against me." NARTH attached a statement to to Rekers' announcement saying his apparent hypocrisy does not reflect on their work.

3. Al Gore's electric bill
The former Democratic vice president has won a Nobel Prize and an Oscar for his work publicizing the threat of global warming. But a few years ago, the Tennessee Center for Policy Research reported that the Gore family burns more electricity in one month at its 10,000-square-foot mansion than the average Nashville family uses in a year. (In 2007, the Gores' average monthly bill, according to utility records, was $1,200.)

4. Mitt Romney's gardener
Former Massachusetts governor Mitt Romney called for a crackdown on illegal immigration when he was running for the 2008 Republican presidential nomination. But the landscaping company that tended his lawn in 2007 was caught — twice — using undocumented Guatemalan workers to tend Romney's lawn and tennis court.

5. Newt Gingrich's unfortunate timing
Since leaving Congress, former House speaker Newt Gingrich has admitted that he was cheating on his then-wife while he led the fight against then-president Bill Clinton over the Monica Lewinsky affair. But Gingrich, a Republican, said that didn't make him a hypocrite. Clinton wasn't impeached in 2008 for infidelity, Gingrich said, but for lying about it under oath to a judge, and "you cannot accept... perjury in your highest officials."

6. Eliot Spitzer, crime-stopper
Former New York governor — and rumored CNN host-to-be — Eliot Spitzer built his career as a "beacon of justice, the scrappy David taking down the Goliaths of Wall Street, the insurance industry, and yes, even prostitution," says Newsweek. So when news broke that Spitzer, a Democrat, had been deceiving his wife and political allies by sneaking off to visit $1,000-an-hour prostitutes, he became a poster boy, says author Peter Elkind in Rough Justice: The Rise and Fall of Elliot Spitzer, for "the chasm between public image and private reality."

7. Strom Thurmond's views on race — in the bedroom
Strom Thurmond — whose political career as a South Carolina governor and Senator spanned decades — ran for president in 1948 as the segregationist States Rights Democratic Party candidate, winning 39 electoral votes. In one speech, he said, "There's not enough troops in the army to force the Southern people to break down segregation and admit the nigra race into our theaters, into our swimming pools, into our homes, and into our churches." Thurmond's views on race later softened, though he never explicitly renounced segregation. Shortly after his death in 2003, a Los Angeles woman named Essie Mae Washington-Williams, whose mother was a black maid for Thurmond's family, revealed that she was Strom Thurmond's daughter.

http://theweek.com/article/index/203126/7-most-ironic-political-scandals

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Sometimes my ideas are sooooo brilliant...

 I'm updating this for people who don't get my humor at the obvious.. Yeah, it ruins the joke to have to explain it but not everyone who reads this blog are rocket scientists. Sorry, smart people, for the tedium.

Obviously 24 hour news is a bad idea and reality TV is all the rage so here's my plan. Put together reality shows starring politicians or political commentators.
Amazing Race: Sarah Palin and Mark Sanford (Remember the Russia from Palin manor and the trip to hike the Appalachian Trail when Sanford was ACTUALLY with his mistress in Argentina?)
The Biggest Loser: Glenn Beck, Rush Limbaugh (Obviously two fat stupid men who could use a jog around the block)
The Real Housewives of Alaska: Sarah Palin, Bristol Palin, and Willow Palin (That one is obvious, and completely possible. Sarah loves reality shows!)
 American Idol : Rod  Blagojevich )
Survivor: Mitt Romney (has he made the WORSE alliances ever??)  Remember when McCain promised to nominate him vice if he helped him win Utah? He nominated the worst setback to womankind in history, like, THE NEXT DAY. And that was after THIS: http://crooksandliars.com/2008/02/14/romney-endorses-mccain
Jersey Shore: John Bohner. He's got the orange glow down from GTL, can he keep up with the gym and laundry.  

Updated 2/20

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Spring is in the air... Okay not even close but..

Two things reminding me of my future election responsibilities came up.

First I got an email from glassbooth asking me to help make people aware of their awesome site so here's link:
http://glassbooth.org/

And I actually got this last month but didn't put it on yet.
I don't recall get a thank you note from Bush :) Just sayin'...

Monday, February 14, 2011

Pain=puke. Puke=pain...

I was reading a message I get from LDS Living. It addresses my confusion and loss of faith in not my religion but in what God has in store for me. I'm angry with God and actually, I'm not speaking to him. I haven't for awhile. Yeah, it freaks my mom out that I say that but it's not as if He doesn't already know. He knows everything. I was faithful and neck deep in callings at church. Truly dedicated and attended the temple every month. The BOOM! Headache from hell. I've had blessings and blessings and more blessings. So this part of this little lesson I got frankly irritates me. I perhaps lacked this woman's faith but I sought out help in faith as she did:

For she had heard of Jesus , the ultimate physician of both soul and body. She knew what Jairus knew. Anything the Lord lays his hands on, or touches, lives.

But how was she to approach him? Jairus came (she might have been a witness to this) and “fell at his feet, and besought him greatly.” (Mark 5:22,23, emphasis added. ) The ten Lepers “lifted up their voices.” (Luke 17: 13 emphasis added. ) Another leper came “beseeching him. ..” (Mark 1:41 emphasis added.) Even the diseased of Gennesaret “besought him” before they touched “the hem of his garment.” (Matthew 14:34-36 emphasis added. ) But this woman asked nothing, spoke not a word, called no smallest amount of attention to herself. Twelve years as a social pariah must have left scars like canyons. She could not ask for a touch. The imposition of his hands would make him unclean.

Thus, in the silence that her condition had taught her, she thought, “If I may touch but his clothes, I shall be whole.” (Mark 5:28.) And she “came in the press behind, and touched his garment.” (Mark 5:27.)

And was healed! What an explosion of joy and wonder and devotion must have rocked her as she felt the miracle and sensed the wholeness in her organs. She came to the Savior when there was no place else to go, and now, we suppose, she will never go any place else at all.

Jesus knew. This seems almost as miraculous as the healing. His disciples were amazed at the question, “Who touched my clothes?” “Master,” they replied, “the multitude throng thee and press upon thee, and sayest thou, Who touched me?” (Luke 8:45.) In a narrow street with a swirling crowd desperate to be near him, he felt the touch and knew that it was more than a touch. The Savior felt virtue [better: power] go out of him. (Mark 5:30.)

And so he asked, “Who touched my clothes?” (Mark 5:30.) Again the woman’s personality appears. She made no rush of gratitude and amazement to fall at his feet and give thanks. Rather, when she "found that she was not hid, " as she had hoped to be (Luke 8:47), “she came trembling.” (Mark 5:33.) Again we sense that her affliction has driven her deep within herself.

But she came, the miracle still burning inside, “and falling down before him, she declared unto him before all the people for what cause she had touched him and how she was healed immediately.” (Luke 8:47.)

Jesus saw her kneeling there, perceived her remarkable faith and the goodness of her heart and said simply, “Daughter, thy faith [not the clothes, not the touch] hath made thee whole; go in peace. …” (Mark 5:34).

My wife suffered for years with incapacitating, demoralizing headaches. She took her problem to many doctors, anti they all had suggestions and they all had prescriptions and they all charged money, sometimes amazing amounts of it. And when it was all over she was not better, but seemed to grow worse. Finally, when it seemed that there was no place else to go, we went to our knees and to the Savior , and in his quiet, gentle way, after sufficient time and faith, he showed us the solution.

This is not an indictment of doctors. Those we visited were marvelous, dedicated men who offered the common solutions. None of them prescribed owl brains or frog livers. But it took us so long to make our way to the Savior . . .

I fear that many of us misunderstand the atonement and the power of the Lord to help us: to heal any wound, resolve any difficulty, purge any pain. Only after we have suffered enough to exhaust all the dimmer hopes do we come before Him, driven finally to our knees by the joyous but painfully learned knowledge that there is no place else to go. Once there we may learn that if we had been willing, we could have been there all the time.

CONCLUSION: Certain qualities possessed by the Savior draw us to him in times of need and pain and sorrow. He has a perfect knowledge of each of us. He has compassion for us; his empathy is absolute. When we are afflicted, he is afflicted (see D&C 133:53). His love passeth knowledge (see Eph. 3:17-19), and he has all power. Nothing is too hard for him. When he acts in our behalf, the result is always miraculous. Thus, even though his personal miracles were confined to a small place and a short time, their messages reach across the ages to us. And the promise come with those messages. He will do for us what he did for them, and for the same reasons: because of his compassion; to build and confirm faith; and to teach us spiritual realities.

He's got to admit that this headache really, really sucks.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Crossroads.

So I'm at a crossroads. The meds I take for pain are at a plateau. Now I'm maintaining the addiction and dulling the pain but not escaping it ever anymore. Time for choices and I know how each road ends or could end.
1st road is short and it leads to a cliffs edge. My thoughts on ending my life myself are actually pretty healthy. I joined a "thoughts of suicide" support group once and got in trouble for my very first sentence: "So I think about committing suicide." Everyone freaked. You aren't allowed to say the "S" word here. One girl said "She didn't know. She won't do it again." So everyone looks at me for what else I might say but what do I say? I'm there for a reason and the reason is the one forbidden topic?? It's not like the 'cry for help' kind of suicide, and there ARE many kinds, ya know. Mine is the 'one of the only options that are for ME' kind. I always hear people talk about suicide being selfish. I only know what I feel and what I imagine others feel and I say it's selfish for people to expect others to live with something that not only do they NOT feel or comprehend, but don't even really have to think about. I imagine many people have thought long and hard about their options and not really seen a better way. Who am I, who are YOU to judge that choice? And where were you when they needed you? Is it more important to you that someone exist even peripherally than not at all? Of course it is. That's selfish and you aren't qualified to make that choice. The cliff thing is metaphorical for me. I'm scared of heights because I'm afraid that if I jump/fall, it won't kill me. Just disable. Being disabled is on of my biggest fears. I'd probably miss with a gun, I don't want to take out a car so anything vehicular is out of the question. I don't want anyone to have to clean up a mess and I don't want to risk my kids finding me. See? Anyone who thinks about it THIS thoroughly isn't a huge risk. I've always known I'd do it with pills but now there aren't enough pills in my house to kill me. I literally take a lethal dose of pills every day. I'm immune. So this is why I hesitate at the first road.
2nd road is upping the meds. Methadone or morphine are next on the no win opioid list. My sister and I talked about this a lot. She knew about drugs and I promised her I'd not touch either "M" drug and I intend on doing everything I can to keep that promise. She passed away last year. I'd have gladly gone in her place but I know she's been at her own crossroads for a while now. All sisterly love aside, it would just bring me back to this place eventually anyway. This isn't a terminal illness, so there is no end in sight. Which takes me to road number....
3. Surgery. This would make everyone feel better (except me). Let me try to explain this surgery thing:
We are looking at spinal fusion on the most mobile section of my spine. This means I would no longer be able to turn my head. It would limit the things I do even as I am now. No driving, no roller coasters, no looking up or down or side to side. I had to voluntarily do that for awhile after one procedure and it was impossible for me. This is all assuming I don't die on the table or become a quadriplegic. Can you imagine the change from darkness and apathy to not being able to turn the channel or pee on my own? I'd be hard pressed to take road number 1 if I was paralyzed. 
The spinal fusion is anterior, meaning they'd approach the front side of my spine to put what is called an interbody cage:

 This would be implanted between however many vertebrae the specialist feels needs to be fused. In those little holes they would put plugs of my own or cadaver bone pieces and slowly it would all grow together around the cage. In the meantime there would have to be ZERO trauma. My doctor had been supportive of this until one of his patients fell face forward and when her mother tried to get her off of her face the small amount of bone growth snapped, instantly severing her spine. Here are more pictures of the procedure:

The cage is inserted much lower in these pictures than they would be in mine. Mine would be in the top two. How long does it take for the bone to completely grow around it assuming that my body would accept the bone sample?

What are my risks?
There are risks associated with any surgical procedure. The risks for a cervical surgery include but are not limited to: inter operative complications, infection, bleeding, hardware failure, hoarseness, paralysis, and death.

Movement of the Bone Graft

In approximately 1 to 2 percent of patients, the implanted bone graft moves or migrates out of its proper position between t
he fused cervical vertebrae, the Mayfield Clinic reports. This complication of cervical spinal cord fusion typically requires patients to undergo additional surgery to replace the bone graft.

Chronic Pain

Cervical spinal cord fusion does not guarantee that patients will experience relief of painful neck symptoms. Chronic pain complications following cervical spinal cord fusion surgery may even be more severe than symptoms experienced prior to surgery, the University of Maryland Medical Center warns.

Hardware or Fusion Problems

Typically, metal plates or screws, called hardware, are attached to the cervical vertebrae to help stabilize the fused spinal bones. In certain cases, these pieces of hardware can become damaged or may crack or break before the attached cervical vertebrae fully fuse, the Mayfield Clinic explains. Hardware complications following cervical spinal cord fusion typically necessitate additional surgery to repair or replace the damaged hardware. Additionally, the connected cervical vertebrae may fail to fuse together, which can contribute to chronic neck pain symptoms. Fusion complications after surgery occur more commonly among patients who are obese, smoke cigarettes or have osteoporosis, a degenerative bone disease.

And the number one permanent complaint? A chronic headache. So, YOU tell ME what to do. Because all that really matters in the scheme of things is what makes YOU comfortable? Because I am really tired of being an inconvenience to those of you who have so much to say about me and my life. Unless you live with me, or are me, you get no say in the matter.

Here's the thing. I'm a really good mom. Better in spite of the headache than many people I know. I spend a great deal of time pondering my choices and who they effect.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

My Kristol ball

I'm going to call it. Fox HAS to get rid of Glenn Beck, don't they? He's gone from the "crazy but lovable Uncle Glenn" that we hide when we have company to the completely insane, freak of the week, conspiracy theory, lunatic we see now. He's striking out at the ACTUAL journalists at Fox and my guess is that the money hungry execs at Fox will have to make a choice much like all Conservatives will soon. Drop the freak show or lose any semblance of legitimate news reporting reputation you have left. I doubt Bill Kristol is going to take Beck's nonsense quietly. It's a reflection on them that he's even on Fox News right now. (As it is with the Mormon church that he's Mormon.)

So he's got his book out to teach the world to do as he says, not as he does. And is getting more paranoid and frantic in his conspiracy theory rantings. He's showing more and more that he recognizes that the people who actually believe him aren't the edjamacted sort. He has a real issue with some imagined Ivy League professor that wears tweed and smokes a cigar. I've been less distracted by his lack of education than the who rape and murder thing he's accused of. Which, by the way, if you aren't going to show us the entire record that would somehow clear you of raping an old lady as you sobbed about God making you do it, just why would you expect President Obama needs to prove that his citizenship isn't the world's best fraud committed by a barely born child?? Seriously, who takes this man serious? Oh yeah the Palin touting Teabaggers, THAT'S who.

So the plagues of Egypt have descended on Egypt (according to good old Glenn) stay tuned for water turning to blood, frogs, gnats or lice, flies, diseased livestock, boils (although Palin and Beck could be considered boils on the butt of humanity), darkness and lightening, locusts, darkness, and death of your first born. All of this is leading to an extreme Islamic caliphate..

As I said, conservatives will be forced to choose sides. There will be the normal Republicans and The Batshit Party of Tea. Good news for Dems as Obama stands a better chance of re-election against a fractured party. I would hope that like myself, they choose a candidate that didn't get an online degree and has more brain cells than an amoeba (that disqualifies Palin, though she did THAT a long time ago.)

Monday, February 7, 2011

Bummer!

I don't watch football so the Superbowl is of little interest to me. If the Steelers are in the mix, I've got to pull for them in memory of my dear old dad. Although we did actually make a bet on the 49ers-Dolphin game not long before he died. My understanding of the game was Joe Montana was hot, so I'm with the 49ers. It was so much more maddening to him that even in ignorance I won that bet. Looks like he didn't pick a winner last night.

Bill O'Reilly had the opportunity of a lifetime. He pulled the President away from the game for an interview. I know zilch about journalism but I'm guessing one of the cardinal rules is make your questions count and make em short, then allow the interviewee answer. Often they will hand themselves. Look at the massacre Sarah Palin made of herself with Katie Couric and Charlie Gibson. They looked like they wanted to help her with the answers. Bill O'Reilly was his usual self. He interrupted and cut the President off on nearly every answer. He came off snarky, rude, and self important. But then, he IS all of those things.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

HUGE thank you!!

I couldn't get my headache post on the internet and my daughter took my laptop and converted the whole thing to html. How cool is that??? One half a year of computer programming and she can do things neither my husband nor I could do. I've encouraged her to explore everything she can and it looks like she's finding things she loves and comes in handy.

I'm so proud of my little genetic gifts :)

News from yesterday's doctor appointment.

I went to the doctor yesterday and it's been determined that this is congenital. It's also going to get worse. I kind of knew that but to have it confirmed was remarkably disheartening. Here's the whole story of my headache on one page with pictures and everything.





Why I Have a Headache



Figure1
Okay so it turns out that the misalignment in my spine is congenital. The problem is in the
top two vertebra of my spine (cervical). It’s the most mobile part of your spine and I actually have had symptoms all of my life. But the real pain began about 10 years ago. It started out that I’d have this horrible headache that would last weeks and sometimes a month or two. Then it would go away for a while. As it became more constant, I started seeing doctors. ALL KINDS of doctors. My third chiro had me get an x-ray standing up and the problem became apparent then. My atlas is slid to one side and slightly rotated. My axis is slid to the other side. Basically it looks like figure 1. It should look like figure 2. Through that center hole is my spinal cord, my brainstem, and a network of nerves. You can see that in my case all of this is pinched into a smaller area and it’s getting worse all of the time. Yesterday the doctor told me it will continue to get worse.
Figure2My options are limited. Surgery isn’t advanced enough to deal with the problem and 400 opinions later it’s clear that the risks outweigh the chance of fixing it. Paralysis and
  death being the biggies (I’d choose death because right now I can surf the web, turn
channels and STILL pull myself out of it enough to do things with my girls.) Paralysis would definitely change that. At this time I’m going the pain management route but the pills are becoming less effective with time. I have chosen to draw the line where I’m at, though a less scrupulous doctor would put me on Fentanyl or oxycontin. They are more addictive with oxycontin being a substitute of heroin. Aside from this being constant and unwavering, I also have the following symptoms typical of this kind of misalignment:
Low grade fever
Increased blood pressure
Sensitivity to light, sound, smell and ringing in my ears
Fatigue
And a heart murmur
Depression (though I think that this would make anyone depressed and a touch moody, no?)

I’ve had several tests run, two MRIs, x-rays, acupuncture, acupressure, etc. I’ve seen 5 chiropractors (BIGGEST mistake of my life for this condition), an osteopath, 2 neurologists, 7 doctors, a pulseologist, two pain clinics, and a few holistic hocus pocus people. I’ve traveled far and wide even to San Francisco.While I appreciate everyone’s concern and advice, I’ve learned that I shouldn’t have tried every suggestion as some things have made it much worse. It’s also cost a lot of money that I feel was a huge waste. I am researching always and at this time maintaining. I won’t be taking any suggestion outside of my doctor, etc. Thank you , anyway :)

Figure3

In the last picture you can see where the two vertebrae fit together. Any chance of them staying in place was lost by having them popped back into place by chiropractors. With each visit it would stay aligned for a shorter amount of time until it popped out immediately after an adjustment. It, in essence, wore down the ridge that held it in place and now it will NOT stay at all. Also the muscles surrounding my cervical spine have grown to hold it OUT of place so it’s not just about the spinal misalignment, it’s trained to stay out of place. I’m not suggesting that chiropractors are not helpful to some cases but in my case it was the worst mistake ever.