So about 2 and a half months ago I wrote a blog that got some of my family members' panties in a twist. Nothing that I said was untrue or a secret. I deleted most of my fam from Facebook, even those NOT involved (I figured it would be best to not make it a 'take sides' scenario). It's been a peaceful two and a half months. My girls have asked if this means we don't have to go to the family get-togethers (some are long standing traditions). I don't know what to say. I will always try to do what is best for my girls and husband but honestly the easy answer would be "No. We don't have to do it anymore.) especially since THEY all seem to dread it too. There are family members that I love and can't imagine life without them. My girls have some cousins that they love to spend time with and they need MORE time with them and not less. I guess it's a matter of making those events happen more often.
In the last couple of days I've heard some stuff that the ones I can live without have said or done. Not about me, but it never ceases to amaze me how cruel these people can be. Especially to the people they supposedly love. There's no excuse for it. I don't want my girls to grow up thinking that hurtful things should just be brushed off. Not to mention the irony of those who say these things.
I know I've become unbearably opinionated. I know that I am sometimes too sensitive. I know that the way my life is now has made me short on patience and ofttimes angry at the world. It hasn't made me insensitive to other people, though. This is unlike me to stay angry, to be so unforgiving. But what if this is what is best for all of us? I don't want to become so cruel. There's no excuse for that and I certainly don't want that for my kids. I may be a bitch, but it turns out that karma is an even bigger one. Food for thought.
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