Oh the pressure of a topic.

My blog is many things to me. It's where I go to vent. The online version of screaming into a pillow. Sometimes it's something I just found out and I'm instantly happy, sad or angry and it's where I need to release that emotion. Sometimes something interests me and I want to know more so I spend days researching and then blogging on it. Those can take me a day or two. Sometimes it's personal and I feel like I am exposing myself by writing about these moments in my life. I have a few subjects I've written blogs on and saved them, but not published them because they are too much a part of me.

There are days that I crank out 3 entries in a day and times I have nothing to say. But this is my haven. I NEED it. I need to have an outlet and I can't be told to lighten up on what I talk about. It was never intended to have a following, but it does. I can't blog to entertain and I can't hold back what I feel. It's self indulgent and I won't be stopping anytime soon.

That being said, I'm not here to provide a topic for other people to write about. My blog is going to be a mishmash of topics and though I will write about some things several times, like Glenn Beck and stupid people, it's truly a reflection of how I think. My mind skips from topic to topic and I'm interested in a variety of things. If my readers are going to blog about me it would be nice if they stuck to the facts. I realize that anyone who has so little in life to do that they hit my blog upwards of 10 times a day is going to have an opinion of me and it could be a negative one. I would think that after all this time, though, they wouldn't have to make things up. It's truly a sign of sour grapes and I recognize that. Many people believe that I've been naive in my choice to be friends with this person I am alluding to. I've been told that the fascination is unhealthy, even stalkerish. I've mostly disagreed but when I pop up often as a topic and the references are a bit personal I have to wonder, myself. Is it healthy for someone to obsess over some random chick online?