THAT was the beginning of the end for my spine and I'm PRETTY sure my neighbor's wife chose not to give me ALL the info because she wants me dead (keep that in mind if I end up dead). I've had reflexology, a Chinese dude with herbs and pulse readings, acupressure, acupuncture, chiropractors (one that also included acupressure but all the pressure points were in my boobs. Needless to say I didn't go back.) Ummm, lots of MDs, a pain management clinic that temporarily numbed nerves till they discovered the one that causes the pain is IN the spinal column and no reputable doctor will touch that. Faith healers and the weird "hold sugar in the palm of your hand". Every medication spanning the alphabet and color spectrum. Scotch soaked raisins then when THAT failed just the scotch (which actually helped, but drunk isn't good either). Massage relieves it but because my neighbor had to get a REAL job he doesn't do it anymore. Now his wife can go back to trying to kill her family and leave mine out of it. Needless to say, I have zero faith in anything anymore and don't even WANT to hear ideas.
I have a room downstairs that I call the Zen room. It's a sewing room with a futon. It's dark and cold and that is where I hide out when it's really bad. I have a cat named Sasha. We adopted her from a shelter and when we had her spayed, it never really healed right. She doesn't like to be touched or bothered. She spends a lot of time in the Zen room with me. She sleeps at my feet (in fact if my feet are cold she lets me slip them under her). Lately I've noticed that on the really bad days, she'll come up and want to be petted. She'll even curl up around the top of my head to sleep. Last night was a really bad night. She came up and started to "knead" at my chest (okay not as creepy when SHE does it as when the chiro did it.) then she put one paw on my cheek and touched her nose to different places on my head and face. She even follows me. My kids have seen it too. It's weird, but good weird. I lack faith, but call me crazy. My cat's empathic.
(Sasha shortly after being spayed)
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